Monday, August 11, 2014
My Thomas is five weeks old. What a five weeks it has been! If I never see the inside of another hospital room/doctor's office it will be too soon! Our sweet, precious boy was actually due just 12 days ago. Isn't that crazy? He was "on the cusp" of being premature. This led to some problems with feeding, sadly, and more mommy guilt than I care to admit. I'm trying to be the best mommy I can be, but sometimes I'm so aware of where I'm falling short!
Last week's car accident and subsequent whiplash and meds for me didn't make matters any better. Pictured above: Robert and Thomas hanging out in the parking lot while I was in the emergency room (well, I had actually just come out of the emergency room and was taking their picture, but you know what I mean). Aren't they cute? Whiplash/dealing with insurance companies/ being on meds with a newborn/ not being on meds when maybe you should be/ developing a full-body rash because of your meds are all decidedly not cute.
Aww... that face! We have such an adorable baby. He is so floppy and expressive.
Being a mommy is awesome and exhausting. My main goal right now is to try to let go of some of the guilt/worry/trying to be perfect. Happy moms make for happy babies, right? When I held him in the hospital on his first day, I wondered if I would now be worried for the rest of my life. He is such a wee, little thing, and I want his life to be wonderful! My new goal is to lighten up, take it down a notch and just do my very best. I mean, it's the very best I can do, right? Right.